January 29, 2009

Yesterday we found out that I passed the tissue type! I add an exclamation point because this is what we wanted . . . what we prayed for . . . right?? Well I think an experience with McCady last night kind of summed up my feelings on the whole situation.
At dinner Ward asked McCady to bless the food. “Remember to thank Heavenly Father for helping Mommy be the right tissue type.” She said a very cute prayer and after she was done said, “I’m so glad you passed Mommy!” (Like it was a huge exam or something) Ward hugged her and then said, “It’s so good, huh, now Mommy can start her treatments again.”
The look of pure horror that crossed across her face was similar to what was in my heart. She tried to smile, several times, but failed and didn’t say anything. She just seemed to be thinking—You’ve got to be kidding me! That’s what we were praying for?!?
I know how she feels. This is what we wanted. We wanted the treatment and we’ll take all the stuff that comes along with it—the separation, travel to Denver, the bouncing from house to house, craziness the treatment causes, the sick Mommy in bed, the Daddy stressed about everything, the kind people who do so much for us, the blessings poured out from heaven—because that’s where the hope lies. I’m so grateful, and trying not to be mixed. So relieved that I qualify and so apprehensive about what the next few months hold. I’m so grateful for you all—for my family and friends who remember me in prayer and thought no matter your beliefs—no matter how busy you are. I love you all!
Ward’s mom said the other day. You guys are really intense. But it seems like it’s just for a few days and then everything seems better. I’m grateful for that too. A few days here and there, intermingled with such an amazing life . . . I’ll take that, any day.


Brodi Ashton said...

Anne- Wonderful news. Bittersweet news. I got your email- thank you so much for updating me! I think your next project sounds great, and I can't wait to help you in any way I can on it. Very important work.

You have been in my thoughts constantly, and I picture "Annie" (from 'bible camp') with your face in my head.

Send along anything my way, including your query.


Jennie said...

Anne, I'm glad things worked out how you wishes with what you have ahead of you now. You are in our prayers.

kellie said...

Anne - Our whole family is so happy and glad that you passed!! We are sorry that you have to do this at all, but if this is the best option then good! Prays have been answered!! We love you so much and you are in our thoughts and prayers!

Diana said...

I love you. I'm sorry I haven't had a chance to talk to you. I got your comment on my blog. I wish you could have been there with us too. That would have been so fun. Tell McCady, MaLeah, and Maiya that we love them! And by the way, Bella can't stop talking about the party she is going to have with her cousins in June. Love you :)

Lasting Memories by Marjean said...

Anne and Ward,

I can't tell you how sick to my stomach I get when I hear there is more treatment ahead and how thankful I am that there is more treatment ahead. We love you so much and want you to know that we are cheering you on and praying for you every day. We know that you can do this and that it will be hard but we also know that you will be blessed and renewed through the spirit. Keep your chins up and smiles on your faces. We love you!


Penny said...


Good luck with all of this. We are praying for you! I wish that I were right there and could take your kids or make you dinner or something. Know that if I were there - I would do all that in a heartbeat. For now, our prayers will have to do. Please keep us updated. It is so nice to know exactly how you really are doing. Lots of love!!

Laurie Jones said...

That is so great to hear. I guess it is a little bittersweet though. PLEASE let me know if you need anything!!!

Josi said...

YEAH!! That's wonderful! I'm so, so, so happy for you guys, and yet my toes curl a little to think of what's ahead. Thank you for letting us know, and please let me know if there is anything I can do to help. I've done very little

Sarajane said...

we are thinking of you guys and want to help- please ask.

Karla said...

I was laughing and crying at the same time when I read your post. I am so happy for you that you qualified. So sad that you have to endure that again. You must be one tough chick; Heavenly Father knows your strength. Just remember that President Hinckley kept fighting his cancer with treatments. You can do this!

Heidi and Maxwell said...

This is great news, I just wish it were easy. I love you, I love you, I love you!!! Give your sweet girls hugs from us.
Lots of Love:

We are so blessed to have the gospel!

Ronda Hinrichsen said...

Yeah! :( Yeah! :( Yeah! :( I think that about sums it up. My prayers and fasting are with you. said...

what wonderful news. you are so amazing - your family is so strong we know you will get through this. you are always in our prayers!

i was just smiling the other day thinking about your family - do you remember when you used to have to give McCady change to get her to go to nursery!

we love you guys!

Karla said...

Anne........I'm glad you qualified for the treatment. Just remember........."While the difficult takes time, the impossible just takes a little longer". You can do this and Heavenly Father sends his blessings to you everyday.

Love you so much:)

Jamica said...

Anne, it's wonderful to have prayers answered! We are grateful that we get to exercise our faith in you and your family's behalf.
I have wondered how you must feel right before you begin a miserable treatment. Maybe this sounds a little sac-religious but I've often thought that you must be getting a small taste of what Christ must have felt before going into the Garden. Surely He must have dreaded the agony of what was about to transpire and at the same time recognized the life saving and redemptive hope that that very same act would bring.
I feel like I learn so many lessons at your expense!!! I am so sorry that you have to go through this. I love you! Let me know if you'd like to stay with us again or if you are ever feeling up to a visit.

Scott and Kourt said...

WE love you Anne. Thanks for being so sweet. you are an inspiration to us. I am not sure what to say the news sounds bitter sweet. You are truly amazing